These couple of days,
Suryadi did tried to contact me via SMS and email.

He still want us back together despite I told him countless times that it's impossible.
Moreover he already has a Gf who loves him deeply..

I asked him to move on and treat his GF well, and of course love her whole heartedly.
He was the one who chooses to have a new GF after we break up,
how can he be so irresponsible,
right?


He should really treat his GF well and seriously!


He told me he have changed, went for counsellings etc.
But he doesn't understand that it won't make any changes.
Damages have been made to the relationship we used to have.
Now even if he try to make it up,
it just won't help in any way.


Plus,
I won't want to go back in circle again.
It's enough for 4 years!
I don't want to get hurt and tired mentally and physically.
Neither will I want him to go through it.


I understand that 2 hands makes a clap.
I know that I share the blame and fault as well.
And it's pain even thinking about us in the past.


Seriously,
he just don't understand how much trauma he have given me .